Dealing with Insecurities and Starting Over

Well I’m finally back!

I’m good for taking a few breaks here and there but this one was probably the most needed. The top of the year started off great with getting a new job but over the months came some weight gain. I could lie and say I don’t know where this came from but I can’t lie, I was eating good. With the weight gain came many insecurities I formed about my body, how the clothes fit(or should I say how they didn’t fit), and how my photos would look.

After shoots I hated the photos and got really uninspired altogether. Along the way I felt like I had lost my style and my confidence suffered most of all. I knew I had to get it together.

I started working out with a trainer and eating super healthy but still no weight lost. I became even more frustrated and super defeated.

Starting Over

I soon realized it wasn’t what I eating but more so the amount of food I was consuming. Working my new job it was easy to eat more and even worse, eat all the wrong things. So I began focusing on my diet and nutrition.

I also decided to start fresh and completely purge my instagram page minus a few of my favorite photos. I just felt the need to start over. I’m sure this looks crazy to many especially since I’ll be attending Fashion Week which is only a few weeks away and now IG is like the resume for bloggers but the desire to fully start clean trumped that.

I had to take a step back and revaluate my aesthetic and the look I wanted to present. Nothing about my old feed I felt reflected where I am now. With the new changes I guess bought a new sense of confidence. I recently weighted myself and I lost 5 pounds. Not a lot but a huge step in the right direction. With the support of friends and followers, I finally feel like I’m back on track. So here I am.

Side note: Check out the new logo in the header. I think I’m committed to it… for now.